But but but.... SHE'S JUST A BABY!!!!!
She still snuggles up to me for a cuddle. She still climbs on me to sit on my lap whenever I'm cross-legged on the floor. She still asks me to carry her. She still makes really funny mistakes when she speaks. She still sits whenever and wherever she's tired, not bothering about whatever's around her.
She's still wearing one-piece pajamas! Doesn't that all mean that she's still a baby?
Perhaps it was the realisation that she will soon be shipped off to school (well it's really only 3 hours a day, but still), that I went into Super Mama mode today. Today I sat with her and played with her the whole time. Today I was more patient with her. Today I smiled at her more. Today I hugged her more and asked for more kisses. Today was all about her, and everything - housework, cooking, social media - took a backseat.
The thing about the second child is that you tend to have to keep them away from their older siblings when you're trying to do something constructive with them, and after months or years of brushing them aside, you suddenly realise that hey, they're TWO YEARS OLD! And then you feel guilty about not having stared at them enough or smelled them enough.
Today I am very very very thankful for the opportunity I've had to spend one-on-one time with Calla. Every morning when Poppy is in school, it's just us. It's special. We do things at our own pace. We do things that are catered to her as opposed to simply following what her sister wants to do. We go out. We explore. We do the same things that I used to do with Poppy when Poppy was a baby.
For this, I am grateful. And for the remaining months I have with her at home with me until school replaces me for 3 hours a day. From now till then, I will remember to watch my child in wonder instead of rushing her when she does things she enjoys like like going up and down stairs. I will prepare more sensory bins for her since she likes them so much. I will remember to bring a bottle of bubbles out with me everywhere we go even if it means dirty, soapy hands.
I will remember to use this precious time to the fullest with my Calla Lily, my baby who will soon not be a baby anymore.
Excuse me while I shed a few tears.