|I get to see this sight, and kiss these hands and feet every single day :)|
This afternoon, while we were out having our afternoon snack, someone asked me, "You're looking after them both on your own? That's really nice."
And indeed it is.
|Library visits - I've had more in the last 4 years than in 30 before|
It also started me thinking. One day I just realised that I have stopped yearning for adult conversation over lunches. Not having regular pedicures or facials don't bother me anymore. Not having a fixed amount of money deposited into my bank account every month, not being able to plan my day according to what I want, changing my mindset toward many things... I've accepted these things are part of my new life, one that is allowing me to enjoy the little things. Non material things. And I'm happy for that.
|These two. They drive me crazy, and I am head over heels in love with them|
I can't quite pin point the exact moment when it happened. It just did. But if I were to think about it hard enough, I'd say it occured around the time Calla was born. When I left my job when Poppy was 3 months old, I was honestly a little bitter. Being at home with her was bittersweet. For months I wondered if I had made the right choice. I had regular internal battles. I had withdrawal symptoms. I was envious of working mums. It took me nearly a year to get used to it.
But when Calla was born, I had already gone through all those feelings, and I knew, I just knew, that what I was doing was the right thing to do. It just felt so right.
|Not owning a car allows us to play games while taking the train or bus. Here, Max and Poppy are playing "Thumb Battle"|
Having Max at home a lot is wonderful. But it also means that since he is spending more time with the kids, he's not out there working. So we tighten our belts, no problem. We can do that.
These days, I don't think about what I have lost. Rather, I think about what I have gained.
And it's liberating.